(Told you you'd hate me.)
November 15th, 2009
(Told you you'd hate me.)
November 11th, 2009
The Lark Ascending
by George Meredith

He rises and begins to round,
He drops the silver chain of sound
Of many links without a break,
In chirrup, whistle, slur and shake,
All intervolv’d and spreading wide,
Like water-dimples down a tide
Where ripple ripple overcurls
And eddy into eddy whirls;
A press of hurried notes that run
So fleet they scarce are more than one,
Yet changingly the trills repeat
And linger ringing while they fleet,
Sweet to the quick o’ the ear, and dear
To her beyond the handmaid ear,
Who sits beside our inner springs,
Too often dry for this he brings,
Which seems the very jet of earth
At sight of sun, her musci’s mirth,
As up he wings the spiral stair,
A song of light, and pierces air
With fountain ardor, fountain play,
To reach the shining tops of day,
And drink in everything discern’d
An ecstasy to music turn’d,
Impell’d by what his happy bill
Disperses; drinking, showering still,
Unthinking save that he may give
His voice the outlet, there to live
Renew’d in endless notes of glee,
So thirsty of his voice is he,
For all to hear and all to know
That he is joy, awake, aglow,
The tumult of the heart to hear
Through pureness filter’d crystal-clear,
And know the pleasure sprinkled bright
By simple singing of delight,
Shrill, irreflective, unrestrain’d,
Rapt, ringing, on the jet sustain’d
Without a break, without a fall,
Sweet-silvery, sheer lyrical,
Perennial, quavering up the chord
Like myriad dews of sunny sward
That trembling into fulness shine,
And sparkle dropping argentine;
Such wooing as the ear receives
From zephyr caught in choric leaves
Of aspens when their chattering net
Is flush’d to white with shivers wet;
And such the water-spirit’s chime
On mountain heights in morning’s prime,
Too freshly sweet to seem excess,
Too animate to need a stress;
But wider over many heads
The starry voice ascending spreads,
Awakening, as it waxes thin,
The best in us to him akin;
And every face to watch him rais’d,
Puts on the light of children prais’d,
So rich our human pleasure ripes
When sweetness on sincereness pipes,
Though nought be promis’d from the seas,
But only a soft-ruffling breeze
Sweep glittering on a still content,
Serenity in ravishment.
For singing till his heaven fills,
’T is love of earth that he instils,
And ever winging up and up,
Our valley is his golden cup,
And he the wine which overflows
To lift us with him as he goes:
The woods and brooks, the sheep and kine
He is, the hills, the human line,
The meadows green, the fallows brown,
The dreams of labor in the town;
He sings the sap, the quicken’d veins;
The wedding song of sun and rains
He is, the dance of children, thanks
Of sowers, shout of primrose-banks,
And eye of violets while they breathe;
All these the circling song will wreathe,
And you shall hear the herb and tree,
The better heart of men shall see,
Shall feel celestially, as long
As you crave nothing save the song.
Was never voice of ours could say
Our inmost in the sweetest way,
Like yonder voice aloft, and link
All hearers in the song they drink:
Our wisdom speaks from failing blood,
Our passion is too full in flood,
We want the key of his wild note
Of truthful in a tuneful throat,
The song seraphically free
Of taint of personality,
So pure that it salutes the suns
The voice of one for millions,
In whom the millions rejoice
For giving their one spirit voice.
Yet men have we, whom we revere,
Now names, and men still housing here,
Whose lives, by many a battle-dint
Defaced, and grinding wheels on flint,
Yield substance, though they sing not, sweet
For song our highest heaven to greet:
Whom heavenly singing gives us new,
Enspheres them brilliant in our blue,
From firmest base to farthest leap,
Because their love of Earth is deep,
And they are warriors in accord
With life to serve and pass reward,
So touching purest and so heard
In the brain’s reflex of yon bird;
Wherefore their soul in me, or mine,
Through self-forgetfulness divine,
In them, that song aloft maintains,
To fill the sky and thrill the plains
With showerings drawn from human stores,
As he to silence nearer soars,
Extends the world at wings and dome,
More spacious making more our home,
Till lost on his aërial rings
In light, and then the fancy sings.
WHERE HAVE ALL THE FLOWERS GONE words and music by Pete Seeger
performed by Pete Seeger and Tao Rodriguez-Seeger
Where have all the flowers gone? Long time passing Where have all the flowers gone? Long time ago Where have all the flowers gone? Girls have picked them every one When will they ever learn? When will they ever learn? Where have all the young girls gone? Long time passing Where have all the young girls gone? Long time ago Where have all the young girls gone? Gone to husbands every one When will they ever learn? When will they ever learn? Where have all the young men gone? Long time passing Where have all the young men gone? Long time ago Where have all the young men gone? Gone for soldiers every one When will they ever learn? When will they ever learn? Where have all the soldiers gone? Long time passing Where have all the soldiers gone? Long time ago Where have all the soldiers gone? Gone to graveyards every one When will they ever learn? When will they ever learn? Where have all the graveyards gone? Long time passing Where have all the graveyards gone? Long time ago Where have all the graveyards gone? Gone to flower every one When will we ever learn? When will we ever learn?
November 10th, 2009
November 4th, 2009
There are so many things I like about that statement that I don't even know where to begin.
I just hope she has a good experience; I hope Holly Black is nice.
November 3rd, 2009
I just did something which is totally out of my comfort zone (doesn't take much), but I did it because I really wanted to help. I was waiting for my local dollar store to open, and so decided to go to a new coffee shop across the street called Cafe Central. It is a beautiful place, and the owner seems very nice, but my experience was not a good one. I almost paid and left, but I forced myself to stop by the cash and ask to speak to the owner. I said something like this to him:
"I never do this sort of thing" I told him, "but I felt I had to. Your cafe is gorgeous, and the location is great, and I overheard you talking to your contractor about expanding and that should be good, too. But I ordered a latte, and instead of sprinkling chocolate on it, as I had asked, you sprinkled cinnamon on it. Luckily, I like cinnamon, but I saw you sprinkle an awful lot on it, maybe because you were busy talking to your friend and got distracted, and it made the coffee almost undrinkable. And I waited twenty minutes for my croissant, which you had offered to heat for me; I watched as you chatted up a neighboring business owner, and finally I had to come and remind you about the croissant, whereupon you took one and put it on a plate and gave it to me, stone cold.
I walked in here thinking that it would be a nice place to bring my husband, my mother, and my friends, and very quickly started to feel like I'd be embarrassed to bring anyone here and receive such poor service. Your coffee shop could be the best coffee shop in the world, with the best location and the best food, but if you forget about your customers, it will be the death of this place. I just wanted to tell you this, so that you're aware of it, because I don't want to see nice places like this fold when they don't have to."
He seemed sincerely apologetic, and even offered to refund my money, but I refused and just said that I would love to come back, and hoped to get more attentive service next time.
When I was in Stratford recently, I was reminded of how incredible customer service is in just about every place I've ever been except here. I don't know why that is, but it's a shame. I hope this little coffee shop lasts, but as gathered my things to leave the place, I witnessed the owner taking a call from his wife or girlfriend, while a customer waited at the counter to make an order. It does not bode well.
November 2nd, 2009
October 30th, 2009
This sort of situation is frustrating to begin with, but now is also very anxiety-ridden because of H1N1. Did we make the right choice? I hope so. Fingers crossed.
Now I'm off to try to summon the will to eat something, since throwing up nothing but bile is making my throat really sore. I think my stomach is settling down, now. I already feel a bit better than I did yesterday. If I can actually keep some food down, then I'll know I'm on the road to recovery. I sincerely hope everyone is well enough this weekend for trick or treating and also for Tallis' little birthday brunch on Sunday. Toes crossed, too, then. Healing and positive vibes from friends and family would be very welcome!
(There will be pictures of Devon the Pirate and Tallis the Tiger tomorrow, I hope, before we head out for trick or treating.)
October 27th, 2009
Soon there will be pictures of Pirate Devon and her unusual pet which she rescued from blood-thirsty---and feline-eating---savages on an exotic island in the tropics: a tiger named Tallis.
There is, still, the issue of the boots; I was thinking I'd just cover her Wonder Woman boots in black duct tape, but am beginning to doubt that will work for a number of reasons, and I'm also wondering if it won't damage the boots, which Devon will want to wear again as Wonder Woman. I'm running out of time, too. Hmmm . . .
October 21st, 2009
What I am most excited about regarding my upcoming three-day trip to Stratford is not that I am seeing three plays, not that I get to spend time with some of my favorite colleagues outside the workplace, not that I get to tour around Statford, not that i get to stay in a nice hotel, and not even that I get to do all this for only 200 bucks.
No, what is getting me all hoppy with anticipatory glee is that I just learned that I will have a hotel room all to myself.
Two nights without having to help someone with homework, wait for the bathroom, put people to bed, tidy up after people, get up in the night to sooth people or give them something to drink. And, moreover, two nights of (I hope) uninterrupted sleep, and two mornings where I don't have to tiptoe around because I am (always) the earliest riser in the entire world.
How pathetic am I?
October 20th, 2009
-beautiful spot
-no running water, so had to make endless trips to lake to fill pails and then boil them
-only bedrooms heated, so we wore out outdoor clothes, including parkas, for meals
-slept (and I use the term very loosely) on bottom bunk bed in room with 17 little girls, about three of whom actually slept at all
-sunshine, but very cold
-awesome hike up to bluff with incredible view
-sanitation shifts no fun, especially cleaning an outdoor privy with five girls who don't want to remove their mittens
-lakeside so very still without any birds
-not enough moms and too many girls
-spent all night consoling homesick girls or taking girls to privy in the freezing cold or bringing girls juice
-me and my team of girls made an awesome breakfast, complete with baggie boiled eggs
-Devon acting up a little because I was there
-stars at night more brilliant and numerous than I have ever seen
-may have set me back a few days in pneumonia recovery
-been asked back next year, and might do it because it was fun and rewarding, and I got a cool badge all my own
Come Friday I am headed on a three day/three play trip to Stratford with the Liberal Arts classes. I've been told that I am not responsible for herding kids, but since there are only two teachers who are, I can tell what's going to happen. As long as I'm not up all night taking students to an outdoor privy, however, it's all good.
The following weekend is Halloween, and Tallis second birthday. I think there's also a play date somewhere in there.
I need a weekend with no trips, no birthdays, nothing planned. According to the calendar, that weekend might come in mid-January, if I'm lucky.
Now off to school for an it's-Tuesday-but-it's -a-Friday-schedule-which-means-no-day-of
October 15th, 2009
I hear a crow flying along,
Singing, singing his autumn song.
I feel a leaf fall on my head,
Then on my cheek,
Like the tree is a faucet
With a leak.
~Devon LeBlanc
October 9th, 2009
Then the other day Devon got off the school bus in tears. Turns out her sometimes friend, more oftentimes nemesis, Nikki, had informed Devon, quite gleefully, that she had just gotten her mother to buy her a Wonder Woman costume for Halloween, and, she made a point of adding, it was way nicer than Devon's, PLUS she, Nikki, looked more like Wonder Woman anyway, because of her black hair. When Devon said, "Nikki, that's really mean! You knew I was planning to wear my costume again! Why couldn't you have picked another super hero costume?" Nikki replied, "Well, I guess you won't be so special anymore" and walked away with a smug smile on her face.
I tried to calmly convince Devon that it wouldn't matter if they both had the same costume, but she just said, "You don't know Nikki, Mama---she will spend the entire day making me feel bad." After asking her for the millionth time why she still chooses to be friends with this girl, I suggested that Devon wear her pirate costume to school (it's a little snug, but still sorta fits), and save the Wonder Woman one for Halloween night. Devon has recently been watching the Pirates of the Caribbean films for the first time, and loves them, and so this idea mollified her somewhat. But she is still a little upset.
Man! Little girls can be such little b - - - - -es!
If anyone out there has a cool costume that a 7-year-old girl could wear that you're willing to loan us, or else cool pirate or princess accessories that would fit Devon, would you please let me know? If she decides to be a pirate, I think she'd love it if we could make her pretty standard pirate costume a little funkier. My main objective is to not buy a whole new costume, and I sure as hell do not have the time or desire to make a costume.
October 6th, 2009
Parenting is hard enough without having to deal with any of that shit. I got off the phone full of admiration for this woman, who came off as a very earthy, intelligent, funny and thoughtful person, resigned to her situation and clearly making the best of things, or rather more than that, because she seems to be facing each day with a lot of courage and humor.
Anyway, right at this moment I'm feeling very very lucky to have the life that I have.
October 4th, 2009
But here's the thing. Not having read many murder mysteries, I'm not certain how exactly this is supposed to work, what the 'rules' are, but aren't readers supposed to pretty much have all the information they would need in order to figure out who dunnit before the end of the novel? I mean, is it reasonable to expect that by, say, halfway through the book, one should have been given all the evidence, clues, etc. that one would need to solve the mystery? If so, then James did not follow the rules, and in a big way. Like, she introduces information more than three quarters through the novel that is the information necessary to figure out who the murderer is and why, and even then, once I got to the end and went back, I was not convinced that the information was actually clear enough for me to have been able to figure it out at all.
And it sorta pissed me off.
It only didn't really piss me off because of the lovely writing and interesting characters. But even so, I feel like I was strung along, like James pretty much cheated me. If I can, I'm going to go to my favorite video rental joint and see if they have the old BBC Mystery series, because I know they did Shroud for a Nightingale in the late 70s (some of which I watched with my parents, but was too young to really follow it at all), and I'd like to see it to see if it is like the book.
Anyone out there who has read a lot of whodunnits, and /or read a lot of P.D. James? Is this sort of thing normal? Are there 'rules' about structuring mysteries, or am I way off base?
Huge HUGE thanks to
October 2nd, 2009
Before we head out tomorrow to buy a new TV (and hoping against hope that we can find a basic model for under 300 bucks), does anybody out there have a TV just sitting around that they want to sell? I only ask because I know that some folks replace their TVs every couple of years.
We're not picky, although you'll understand if we shy away from any television over ten years old.
Lemme know before tomorrow!
September 30th, 2009
(Suspicions confirmed.)

